Tiny little Elena West decided she needed to make a grand entrance! Born at only 26 weeks and 5 days(full term is 40 weeks), she weights 1 lb and 5 oz. She has all of her organs, and we think she will be okay, but she is going to live in the hospital for at least 2 months.
Welcome to the world sweet baby girl. Congrats to my aunt and uncle, Kevin and Crystal!!!! This is the miracle baby they've been praying for for so long.

**This poem is particularly important to me. If you plagiarize it.... I will hunt you down.**

I loved you with all of my soul 
but in my heart, you left a hole.
I'm broken. I'm shattered.
I'm alive but i'm scattered.
I'm living day by day
and in time i'll be okay.
I know that after a while
thoughts of you will make me smile.
I wouldn't trade this broken heart
for a million dollars a fresh start.
I wouldn't change a single thing
if i had known the pain you'd bring.
Even after all the tears I've cried,
I could never let you pass me by.

In loving memory of Michael Gage Brittain
"Up with it
Down with it
Fuck those that aint with it
we do it cAUSE we're used to it
now DRINK MOTHER FUCKER DRINK!"

Close your Eyes. 
Pretend this isnt real.
Shut them out, because they cant know how you feel.
Take a breath.
Let it out.
You can hold on forever.
Cant let her go.
Cant set yourself free.

'Cause Sarah sleeps
and she wont wake again.
Sarah sleeps.
She's dreaming with the angels.
Set her free.
Let her Sleep.
Let our Sarah dream.

Open your eyes and see this as it is.
Let us in
'cause we do know how you feel.
And it's okay to miss her now,
but you can't hold on forever.
So let her go.
Set her free.

'Cause Sarah sleeps
and she wont wake again.
Sarah sleeps.
She's dreaming with the angels.
Set her free.
Let her Sleep.

Sarah sleeps
and she wont wake again.
Sarah sleeps.
She's dreaming with the angels.
Set her free.
Let her Sleep.
Let our Sarah dream.

Let our Sarah sleep.


In loving memory of Sarah Jennifer Lynn Brinkmann
"Show me someone who has everything according to plan, and i'll show you someone who doesnt know anything." -Sarah

She doesn't see what he sees.
she's a girl that's
scared of her emotions,
hiding her scars under long sleeves and blue jeans.
oh what he wouldn't give to hold her close,
tell her every thing will be okay.

To write love on her arms,
hold her tight keep her safe and warm.
she doesn't know she's his world
but if she'd only let him in
he could take her pain away.

She's gorgeous on the outside,
but damaged on the inside.
she's in the dark,
inventing her escape.
he reaches out with open arms
but she pushes him away.
he wonders what it takes
to wake her from this nightmare.

what he would give
To write love on her arms,
hold her tight keep her safe and warm.
she doesn't know she's his world
but if she'd only let him in
he could take her pain away.

His heart longs and aches
for her to see what he sees.
convince her.
fall blind in love.
take his hand
make it a permanent glove.
let him fill the darkness
with bright colored neon.
trace his finger over her heart
like a child with a crayon.

To write love on her arms,
hold her tight keep her safe and warm.
she doesn't know shes his world
but if she'd only let him in...
To write love on her arms,
hold her tight keep her safe and warm.
she doesn't know she's his world
but if she'd only let him in
he could take her pain away.

To write love, to write love, to write love on her arms.

I keep seeing so many people saying that the government shouldn't help the people of West, Texas because we the country is broke, and because Texas voted against help for the Hurricane Sandy victims... First of all, our reps voted against it. That doesn't mean we were ALL against it. Second, how fucking PETTY!

Yeah, the country is broke. So why the hell are we worrying about disasters in other countries when we cant even take care of our own??? We cant afford to help the victims of hurricane sandy, or the victims of the West explosion, but we can afford drones and to send our troops to places that don't want our help???

BULL!

We don't even really need government money to help those people. Search your closets for blankets and clothes you forgot you even had. Buy a case of water and some non-perishable food and send it to them. Get a few able bodies friends together and come help them rebuild their homes, instead of going to Hawaii for a vacation. If everyone in the country did things like that there would be plenty of help for every natural disaster. That's a hell of a lot better than sitting on our asses waiting for the government to do something! It is our job as fellow Americans to help each other in times of need.

And i don't just say this for Texas. This is what people should do EVERY time something tragic happens.

(CNN) -- A massive explosion at a fertilizer plant in the small Texas town of West left at least two people dead, sent dozens more seeking medical attention and prompted a widescale evacuation in the community of 2,600 people.

Fire officials fear that the number of casualties could rise much higher.

The blast took place at the West Fertilizer Plant, about 18 miles north of Waco. It sent a massive fireball into the sky

And the danger may not be over.

Residents are being evacuated because officials are worried that another tank at the facility might explode.

State troopers in gas masks were scene rushing to the area shortly after the blast,

Shortly after the explosion, more than 60 patients streamed into Hillcrest Hospital in Waco, suffering from "blast injuries, orthopedic injuries (and) a lot of lacerations," said hospital CEO Glenn Robinson.

While some of the injuries are minor, others are "quite serious," he said.

At least six helicopters are going to fly out those who are injured, Robinson said. Others are being transported by ambulance, and some are getting to the hospital by car, he added.

Two other hospitals in the region were also assisting.

As many scrambled to assist the injured, another danger seemed to emerge Wednesday night.

"What we are hearing is that there is one fertilizer tank that is still intact at the plant, and there are evacuations in place to make sure everyone gets away from the area safely in case of another explosion," said Ben Stratmann, a spokesman for Texas State Sen. Brian Birdwell.

Photos of the explosion -- which reportedly happened around 7:50 p.m. (8:50 p.m. ET) -- showed a huge blaze and flames leaping over the roof of a structure and a plume of smoke rising high into the air.

The West Fertilizer Plant is just north of Waco. A school and a nursing home are among the buildings near the plant, CNN affiliate KWTX reported.

Texas Gov. Rick Perry said he is aware of the explosion, a spokesman said, and was working to get resources into the area.

Tommy Alford, who works in a convenience store about three miles from the plant, told CNN that several volunteer firefighters were at the store when they spotted smoke. Alford said the firefighters headed toward the scene and then between five and 10 minutes later, he heard a massive explosion.

"It was massive; it was intense," Alford said.

Chrystal Anthony, a nearby resident, said she saw the flames engulf a nursing home and an apartment complex.

"It was an apartment complex that was devastated, the nursing home. The fire was close to a residential area," Anthony said.

"It was like a bomb went off," said Barry Murry, a resident who lives about a mile away from the plant. "There were emergency vehicles everywhere. It has been overwhelming."

West, Texas, is a community of about 2,800 people, according to the U.S. Census Bureau.

Sitting about 75 miles south of Dallas and 120 miles north of Austin, West is one of 22 incorporated communities in McLennan County.

Some firefighters at the scene of a fertilizer plant explosion in Texas were concerned Wednesday night about anhydrous ammonia.

What is anhydrous ammonia?

According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, anhydrous ammonia is a pungent gas with suffocating fumes that is used as a fertilizer.

When exposed to humans, it can cause serious problems.



http://www.cnn.com/2013/04/17/us/anhydrous-ammonia-dangers/index.html

I seem to have absolutely nothing to rant about today...... 

Haha! 














I cant tell which part of this picture is more fucked up.... The toddler in the toilet  Or the random crap filling the bath tub?

Like Music? Cool! So do I! Actually, it makes more sense to say im OBSESSED with it. there is one band I am particularly obsessed with at the moment. The Unlikely Candidates. These guys are a Dallas/Ft Worth local influenced by The Strokes. If you haven't heard of them yet, you soon will. In fact, take a minute to check out their latest single: http://www.sonicbids.com/2/EPK/?epk_id=339651#!audio
I promise, you wont regret it. I have been lucky enough to see these guys perform twice so far, and it has been a blast both times. Not only do they play amazing music, they are genuinely fun to watch. I will absolutely be looking forward to seeing them again. Preferably soon, because i have a feeling they are going to be in high demand any day now.

I also want to add that not only are these guys amazing musicians, they are actually approachable. Normally i don't like going up to band members after they perform because it's awkward. But Cole is really cool. He doesn't just say thank you and brush you off like i've seen so many musicians do. He has a conversation with you. That is what a true musician would do. And im positive the rest of the band would do the same. I just didnt get a chance to talk to any of them.

Make sure you check out their Facebook page too!

Keep it up guys! And hurry up with that album!

I just realized that Saq and I both posted old writing today. How is that for a throwback Thursday?!?!

Staring blankly out the window,
She wonders if his pain ever showed.
Did he ever give a hint?
She remembers all the good times spent.
Did he ever speak of his heart?
Her entire life was torn apart.
She remembers his smile,
Her tears fall for a while.
She remembers his voice,
But mostly his choice,
To end his life, if only he knew,
That this was her greatest fear come true.
Her heart so full of unspoken love,
He would not meet her in heaven above.
Then the clouds release the rain,
She feels no more, his unspoken pain.
Alone he'll feel the terror below,
As she stares blankly out the window.




***I wrote this poem about 7 years ago. I was a broken 17 year old. When i go back and read through my old work, I tend to only see a depressed little girl with an immature writing style. This poem, while still depressing, is different. This poem was written with true emotion.