This sucks in every possible way... I know that this seems trivial and silly.... but Cory Monteith's death seriously makes me sad... I know that i didnt even actually know him and all... but i knew him through his character. And while that character may not be him in real life, it does show how amazingly talented he is.
I am not ashamed to admit that i am a die-hard Gleek. I love everything about show business. And that show is included in that. Cory's character was actually my favorite. So the fact that he is just suddenly gone, means his character no longer exists either. So in a way, i have lost a friend. In a very weird way. My heart actually breaks for Lea as i sit here and listen to all the songs they sang together on the show.
The power of addictions seems to be so incredibly underestimated and misunderstood... people see it as something to hide, and be shameful of. Like it is something the affected have control over... well it isnt. I know this from personal experience. The only thing the affected has any control over, is the initial use. And the person is obviously in no state to be making rational choices. In Cory's case, he was 13. His parents had split, and while i cannot pretend to know what went through his mind when he picked up that first drug... i imagine he felt like most young kids, he felt at fault. He needed something to dull the pain. He was desperate. that is definitely something i can relate to...
Have you ever experienced something so painful you wished you could just disappear? Or you felt like you entire emotional being was imploding and you just wished there was a way you could turn it off? Well if you have, then you HAVE experienced the same feeling that leads to that first use of drugs. the only difference between you and an addict is that you did not have that drug readily given to you or near you when you were feeling that pain. You didn't have anything to put the idea that it would make the pain go away in your head. YOU were lucky.
So I would like each and every one of you to stop looking down on addicts. that person needs help. Not your disapproving glares or judgement. After all, you have been one decision away from being in the exact same shoes as that person.