Well, I have returned.
The full story on my 7 month adventure will be posted later, but for now, just a quick Mind Spew just to get back into the swing of things again.
I do have some blogs in storage, so to speak, that I may post later. So much is on my mind, I have always been praised for my ability to handle situations in such a humble, calm way, but I hadn't seen it untill just resently. I wouldn't have, if I didn't have others to compare myself to. When you're locked up in a room 24/7 with the same people with little to none outside influence, you see things a hell of alot clearer than you normally do. I am paying attention to more than I normally did, (which was quite abit to begin with) I also tread in the public eye more carefully. I was never one to worry about public image. Infact, I would argure that individuallity is scarce in this world, go and burn the world down with your style and additude. In some ways, I still think that way, but I am learning to moderate it. It took the view of 12 people to see me the way my friends see me, and I'm not sure why, but they didn't. It bothers me. I can say that I am a truly nice guy, I try hard to follow the lines of morallity, and common decency, but something, still not sure what, put me out to be this monsterous person that 12 saw capable of performing such a horrable act. Something unfathomable in action, but not entirely void of being party of. I have had Family and friends in similar acts of cruilty, I wouldn't wish this pain on anybody, let alone do it myself.
I may be a big, hairy, loud guy... but I'm no monster...
I will write more later, my mother has completed her buissness, and we are leaving the Wi-Fi.
Will write again soon.... very soon...
The full story on my 7 month adventure will be posted later, but for now, just a quick Mind Spew just to get back into the swing of things again.
I do have some blogs in storage, so to speak, that I may post later. So much is on my mind, I have always been praised for my ability to handle situations in such a humble, calm way, but I hadn't seen it untill just resently. I wouldn't have, if I didn't have others to compare myself to. When you're locked up in a room 24/7 with the same people with little to none outside influence, you see things a hell of alot clearer than you normally do. I am paying attention to more than I normally did, (which was quite abit to begin with) I also tread in the public eye more carefully. I was never one to worry about public image. Infact, I would argure that individuallity is scarce in this world, go and burn the world down with your style and additude. In some ways, I still think that way, but I am learning to moderate it. It took the view of 12 people to see me the way my friends see me, and I'm not sure why, but they didn't. It bothers me. I can say that I am a truly nice guy, I try hard to follow the lines of morallity, and common decency, but something, still not sure what, put me out to be this monsterous person that 12 saw capable of performing such a horrable act. Something unfathomable in action, but not entirely void of being party of. I have had Family and friends in similar acts of cruilty, I wouldn't wish this pain on anybody, let alone do it myself.
I may be a big, hairy, loud guy... but I'm no monster...
I will write more later, my mother has completed her buissness, and we are leaving the Wi-Fi.
Will write again soon.... very soon...